Ups and Downs!

I find it strange that I only write when I'm not in the greatest of moods. What's that all about? I have so many things to be happy about and so much good in my life yet I tend to focus so much on the negative. Such as at this moment I am currently in. What do I really have to be upset about...that I got layed off and currently feel like an unaccomplished loser...that my classes utterly suck and I do not see how I will make it through the next few months...that there is a blizzard outside and I'm stuck in the library doing homework that makes no sense to me when I should be snuggled up to my MIA boyfriend sipping hot cocoa...that said MIA boyfriend and I have been having a very rough past few weeks but the thought of life without him makes me literally break down...

Yeah, that's pretty pathetic. Now for the good in my life that should ultimately outwieght and overcome these negative thoughts...I still have the most wonderful family in the entire world who love me and I love them so freaking much...I have wonderful health...I have this boyfriend who treats me so well and I can feel how much he truly loves me...I just moved in with Kevin and Tiffany and absolutely love it...I have the craziest, coolest, most loving mother...I have a car that runs...I have this darling pink laptop on which I can do my lame homework...I have a bed to keep me warm, good food to keep me full, and am smart enough to even be in school...I can laugh about the most negative things no matter how mad or upset I am about them...I absolutely love my ward, I get so excited to go to church..DANCING, my love!! I'm not great but I'm capable and that's enough.

So yeah I have a pretty great life, so really Erin get over yourself!

P.S. does anyone have any advice for me on how to get over jealously???  not joking.

rOctober

Wow!! I completely forgot I had a blog. I have been so neglectful, not cool Erin. So a few new items of business since my last depressing blog, sorry about that. Anyways, here's what's new...

Refer to above picture so see how rOctober began.

Your eyes are not deceiving you, yes it seems Jaxon and I are back together. For those of you who do not know of Jaxon, we dated back in the spring and into the summer. We started dating again the beginning of October and are now 'official' as of Sacrament meeting on Sunday, lol. Things are going so well with us, we are both extremely happy and loving every moment we are together. Mushy I know, that's how it always has been with him. Ya gotta love it.

I am back to hosting my annual Halloween Parties!
We had a big party at Kevin and Tiffany's house Saturday and it was so much fun, it was a very packed house!

This was yet another post I never published...November 4th

My Goals...

this is an old post that was written September 9th and never published. So far the only one of these I have accomplished is buying a modest swimming suit. How lame does that make me feel? Really lame! Oh well, they are good goals to have and I will keep with them.
Learn how to cook

Read my Scriptures daily

Pray more often

Visit the Temple at least once a month

Buy a modest swimming suit

Learn to speak Espanol

Make one new friend a month

Get my very first 4.0