I find it strange that I only write when I'm not in the greatest of moods. What's that all about? I have so many things to be happy about and so much good in my life yet I tend to focus so much on the negative. Such as at this moment I am currently in. What do I really have to be upset about...that I got layed off and currently feel like an unaccomplished loser...that my classes utterly suck and I do not see how I will make it through the next few months...that there is a blizzard outside and I'm stuck in the library doing homework that makes no sense to me when I should be snuggled up to my MIA boyfriend sipping hot cocoa...that said MIA boyfriend and I have been having a very rough past few weeks but the thought of life without him makes me literally break down...
Yeah, that's pretty pathetic. Now for the good in my life that should ultimately outwieght and overcome these negative thoughts...I still have the most wonderful family in the entire world who love me and I love them so freaking much...I have wonderful health...I have this boyfriend who treats me so well and I can feel how much he truly loves me...I just moved in with Kevin and Tiffany and absolutely love it...I have the craziest, coolest, most loving mother...I have a car that runs...I have this darling pink laptop on which I can do my lame homework...I have a bed to keep me warm, good food to keep me full, and am smart enough to even be in school...I can laugh about the most negative things no matter how mad or upset I am about them...I absolutely love my ward, I get so excited to go to church..DANCING, my love!! I'm not great but I'm capable and that's enough.
So yeah I have a pretty great life, so really Erin get over yourself!
P.S. does anyone have any advice for me on how to get over jealously??? not joking.
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Depends on what you are jealous about. What's up, my dear?
Hang in there!! You've been through a lot, and if your trust has been betrayed before, it is hard to get back with anyone. Just be patient with yourself, and focus on what you love about him, rather than only on what you doubt. You are the best! You amaze me all the time!
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