Who I am Now

I've been divorced just over 8 months, and it feels like a lifetime ago. Being married is just a distant memory that feels so unreal to me. I feel like a completely different person leading a completely different life, a life lead by happiness. I refuse to let anyone take this happiness away from me again. People tell me they can see a huge difference in the person I am now than who I was then. I don't think anyone really knows how big of a difference it truly is. I use to go day to day not wanting to live life, not wanting to experience the joys of this beautiful world. I was numb and lonely. Every time I get into a car I prayed that it would crash. I cannot imagine ever having those thoughts now. I have the most wonderful life filled with the most wonderful family and friends. I may not know exactly what I'm doing with my life but I now know where I'm going. Up, I'm headed up.


Ok, enough seriousness for one day, let's talk about one of My most embarrassing days. It happened just this last Sunday when I decided to introduce Jordan to my family.... bad idea on my part. For some reason I thought they could contain themselves, I thought wrong, very wrong. My brothers nearly attacked him, twice, i.e. the picture above and below. Then my mother got a hold of him, no need to say anymore on this topic. I honestly have no idea as to why he is still talking to me and hasn't run far away. It apparently was much worse for me than it was for him, thankfully. All I can say is it's a good thing I love my family.

Family get togethers = Good Times!!